Pre Race Anxiety

I hate the week before race, honestly, i almost can't recognize myself during that week. U can't really train as  hard as u normally do, or rather sometimes u shdn't even train at all, if u do, u do it minimally, so u wake up and just feel useless. On top of that u just crave for everything under the sun, the junk, the food, the sweet drinks, everything u are NOT supposed to take. And then suddenly u feel sick, sometimes u feel like u r coming down with a flu, sometimes a fever, you just can never put your finger on it. Then the injuries. Suddenly every niggle u've ever felt, feels like its real, suddenly u even feel like u r limping and hurting and not sure whether it is real or just in your head, yes sometimes even the back starts hurting, something u have never experienced before. Add on to the that the negativity around u, people going to the same race as u, also worried about the same things, worried about whether they'll make it, or whether they are well enough to take on the race, and that just throws you off completely. Ah yes, the week before a race, i can never get used to that anxiety. But as usual, i'm always joyous, smiling, as if "I know what i'm doing", as if i'm saying "I've got this", yet deep down, i am burning in anxiety, in deep worry, i even wonder sometimes "how do i get myself into such predicaments?".............. Right now i am supposed to do this thing they call hydrating, i hate drinking water, in this case i have to drink only water and not my normal fizzy drinks. It tastes like feet, i hate it, but yes if experts say hydrate, who am i to say no..... Then they also say you must carbo- load.... I don't mind carbo-loading, if what they mean by that is that i shd eat anything i want...... Ahhhhhhhhh i hate pre race week